i Don't Know WHat "Conform" Means.

First a quick little note about what this post will be: Vociferation. To its fullest. 

Here’s why: the verb “to conform” does not really have a place in my small vocabulary..or whatever you want to call the knowledge of about 38 words in the English language. In fact, i have a vague understanding of it and barely comprehend why it’s important. This post is not going to be about how i think, “You should be yourself because you’re extraordinary and will accomplish much in life if you just believe in yourself.” Heaven forbid. Nothing of the sort. And it will certainly not be about how “i’m me because i’m amazing/awesome/best person i know/etc..” But, i say all that to say the world wants me to conform/accept two phenomena i am...not in the least bit in agreement with, or wish to attempt at embracing.

The first is quite simple and elementary, if you will.. Touchpads. Touchpads!!? i Recently walked into an AT&T store and after smiling back at the greeter, who had asked how she could help, asked if she knew of a newer phone that was a SmartPhone, without a touchpad. The look that she gave me next was one that exclaimed, “WAIT...you want me to conquer the world, in the dead of winter, with YOU?!!” Needless to say, she told me i better look online because she has no idea.. Listen, i guess i’m just too old fashioned, but i love the satisfaction i get from “mashin’ the buttons” and stuff happening. i Like that, confirmation, i guess is the word. i Feel as though i’m not asking for much, but...in today's world, regrettably..it looks as though i’ve got to switch to a horrid, dreadful touchpad. i Know what’s available, don’t misunderstand me. All the vibrations and “confirming alerts” that you can turn on in settings so that you know when you have typed something, but alas..i just don’t want. i Can’t even.

Enough of that. Anyway, the next is much more serious and deals with an issue i just, can’t fathom. If you have an explanation for me, i would love to hear/read it. Please. i’m not going to look down or judge, but i want you to at least try to see it from my point of view and then if you disagree, by all means, fire away. My skin is probably thicker than yours. Oops! Did not mean to try to one-up, or sound high above you in any way, i just meant..go for it. Tear away at my reasoning so i can at least, make a valiant TRY to see with your eyes.

Soul mate. The One. Does that exist today? The [maddening] idea came to me to voice my insignificant opinion as an accumulation of stories and others’ thoughts were shared. Namely, this little intelligent video and this enlightening blog post came to my attention when some of my friends shared this around. If you just watched/read either of them, you might agree that they kinda’ parallel each other.. If you disagree with me there, that’s fine. i Think i disagree with myself? But, the point is...i’m pretty sure these two young knowledgeable people are saying, “Nope. There isn’t a ‘thing,’ as The One.” 

So, why am i discouraged? Even after their apparent viable information including God and what He wants of us in this life? Because....it tears me apart. Shredding me to pieces. i’m a hopeless romantic who still Believes. Maybe it’s the Old Fashioned in me that’s acting out of control again, but to be honest, i don’t care. i Could care less about what people think about how i should grow up and live in today’s world. “You’re the one who can’t grasp what i see, like, and enjoy so much!” i say. It’s why i like old romantic comedies from the ’30’s, ‘40’s, and ‘50’s. Hardly anyone from my generation will understand that, that innocence that is so present. 

i Believe in one small, little, tiny, meager,...No, just kidding. It’s a major part of me that has this Belief that: God is GOD. Here’s where it gets tricky depending on who you are: that Belief is, and can be so strong for some, that it is a Statement of Fact. It’s..a lifestyle. i Can’t bring myself to think or spend a second debating on whether to go along with what a lot of people are saying today about this subject. Dare i say they’re completely missing the biggest point of all? 

God. 

Anything is possible when He’s in it, right? Anything.. Right? Am i wrong? Okay i’ll stop. But..seriously!! Anything. Really. 

So, if i always pray, “If it is Your [good and perfect] Will..” What’s the worst that can happen? Honestly. (If you’re lost as to my connection...let me try to make it simple. Primarily, i have Faith. Faith in God because that is what's needed in the first place. In addition, i Believe that when i ask, God will provide The One for me if it is His will for me to marry. Because, He can do Anything.)