However, this is not a blog about some lonely kid in his late teens. If you continue, you shall see soon enough.
As i've grown up, some pet hates have surfaced like they do with most people if you are normal. The one in this post that i shall rant about can be summed up in two words that have cut me deep more than once. "Empty Words" by Bowery Electric is a strange yet true tune about just that; hence, the reference in the title.
It started i suppose when i moved from the jungle to the Golden State. So many people threw around sweet and far from meaningful words like, "I LOVE you!!!!" This in itself are empty words at their best. Of course they don't mean it, yet they insist on using it with an even bigger smile. How can somebody do this to an unfortunate boy of 17 that is wondering why they say such kind words and only mean, "At this moment in time, you're a cool cat who i laugh at."
Is it my place to judge how they felt inside? Of course not reader, but am i significantly sure of their true feelings? Oh yes. It only got worse when i began to feel something fluttering around inside me when i heard those words from exceptionally beautiful girls.
After i moved again to this pond edge, it did not get any better. As a matter of fact, it went more South than a penguin can swim.
So what to do, go on pretending this has no effect on me? Or, write a blog getting my anguish out there? i Guess i took the latter.
Honesty. So much sense in that word, it's a mystery to me why this world and this place i'm in now is so averse to it. It hits me now though, the world thrives on masks. Society today tells us everyday we should wear our masks, if not for the simple reason of everyone else wearing theirs. Honestly, i am worn out about the whole deal. i Hate wearing a mask, yet i feel i must. Online it is necessary, that is a given. There are too many individuals out that prey on dreadful subjects like slimy lettuce, filthy dank swimming pools, and double barrel fishing. Although in groups at work or school or the local greasy burger stop, it is a tough world when friends cannot trust each other.
Can one be an honest person and still like throwing in words that on the surface sound nice but under, don't mean anything? i Guess it depends on the person. No matter, my plan is to become even more honest than i am. It sickens me how people can give meaningless compliments and such that may make the receiver feel comfortable and perhaps have a bigger head as a result.
So why do people bother with words, if they don't mean them? Ah, now here is a conundrum i wish i knew how to solve. Maybe it is the personality that makes them feel like they need to use hollow words to make themselves feel better. If this is the case, i feel sorry for them. They must find another way to make themselves happy around people, or they may end up friendless, if it goes that far.
Valentine's Day for me has never been that special, but today i got enough inspiration to write this. i'm more than fed up with empty words and this is all i could muster. Too many have been used and i hope they run out soon. Some may feel more profound than you realize.
Did you say that too, or am i mistaken, i felt it happen, but i just know you...
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