My Job...?

Time for another one of these silly "blogs" (by the way, blog... maybe I'm just not thinking clearly but what exactly is a blog? Ever wonder why it's called a blog(g)? anyway..random note..)
The title is a question because at the moment, my job really is a question. It has so much potential and if I can only hop to it and find interested people, I shall soar. That's the one thing about this business that I have: if I'm not looking for people, how the heck will I expect to earn anything? The business really is a simple one, it's almost as if it's too simple, I'm afraid of doing it. I wish I knew. I have hope that God will show me if this business is for me or not in the next few months.
I want to be an actor, but I take a Career Planning course in school that showed me actors don't quite make A TON of money. This is where my business would come in. There are hundreds of success stories of people making hundreds of thousands of dollars doing this business. It gives me a lot of hope to know that God knows EXACTLY where my life is headed. Whether it's crashing and burning until I meet Him face to face, or, it's actually sharing what I have to offer and helping thousands of people. I have full confidence that He can help me with this, the only "small" problem would be the fact: Do I fully believe that He REALLY can. I pray that he takes care of it and everything works out, according to His plan. That's the tough part for me right there. "According to His Plan". Whew, that's tough. I know He has the power, and I want so badly for this "job" of mine to workout, but... I always have to remind myself to pray, "IF it's Your Will, ______" I'll admit, it's a big battle, but the more I hear from some strong Christians I have met the more I believe. It really is all up to the Almighty One. He decides everything. Whatever he seems fit to happen, will happen just because He really is the Ruler of this depressing world.
Yes, we all know what's happening. People all over are getting laid off. Heck, my dad is out of work right now (praying like mad..). Now, as a Christian, I find it so cool that we can NEVER get laid off. As hard as it may get, I always think about the people that are barely surviving, but are alive because of Jesus Christ. He has a job for us to do ALL the time. Whether it's praising, worshipping, or just praying, to Him is a job. The more serious one (at least I think of it that way) would obviously be sharing (there it is again. In my business and God) the Gospel. I am sad I still haven't been able to share the Gospel with anybody. It's almost as if God is not giving me the opportunity because he knows that I'm struggling with myself. In a sort of funny way it's like wanting a girlfriend. I strongly believe nobody should just want a girlfriend because they think it will complete him, or because he'll think that having a girlfriend will "complete" him. In my opionon this is complete wrong. Yet again where I think God hasn't given me a girlfriend yet just simply because He knows I'm not ready at the moment. Not saying this will NOT change in the next 2 months, but it's why I haven't got one yet. So I think!
Right now, I will try my best to leave it all to the King and put it in his hands, for I know He knows the outcome. God has the power to give me what I want and of course He has the power to not give me any part of it. So, whether it's doing my business or trying to share the Gospel, only the One who died for me can help me.